It's not Care When it's ContrlYou say you're helping me.That it's for my own good.You threatened me if I didn't follow orders."All we want is that you're happy."Well, what now? Is it really still about my happiness?Or is it just about getting what you want?I wasn't born to serve you.I wasn't born as a slave.And I REFUSE to become a perfect, little puppet.It's no longer love when it turns into powerhungry control.
AloneI'm alone.Friends are great. They have always been there. But how often can I tell the T-R-U-T-H and S-M-I-L-E when I'm D-Y-I-N-G on the inside.I'm M-O-V-I-N-G.To a new school district. I've seen the looks T-H-E-Y give me. I'm an O-U-T-S-I-D-E-R. I don't B-E-L-O-N-G.They throw me D-I-L-E-M-M-A-S.Ones that I bear upon my shoulder like an anvil of burden and anxiety.I C-R-E-A-T-E.Hecate. My closest companion. My creation. My I-M-A-G-I-N-A-T-I-O-N. My conscience. You guided me through life. Gave me the confidence I never knew I had. What did I D-O?I D-E-S-T-R-O-Y-E-D.I destroyed my closest companion. They said I was too old. That I should be making friends. I lost all my C-O-N-F-I-D-E-N-C-E. I lost a P-A-R-T of myself. As stupid as it sounds...real or not...I wish you were here. I'm L-O-S-T.I C-A-R-E-D.My heart melted for someone. Someone who would just overlook me. G-U-E-S-S what? I was R-I-G-H-T. I'm just a S-H-A-D-O-W on the wall.I have F-R-I-E-N-D-S.Those who I guard C-L-
BrokenI. Am. D-I-F-F-E-R-E-N-T.I thought you would take care of me. Raise me up into this world.Now I find myself broken. Dead. Gone.Am I really just a T-O-O-L?Was I just a toy?Something useless?Here I am. Alone. A-L-O-N-E.You have no clue how much that word stings.Every single thing. Every word you all said. Every blow I took.They H-U-R-T.I slowly S-H-A-T-T-E-R-E-D.Despite that, I carry a grin on my face and laugh at life.Despite the fact that I D-I-E-D on the inside.Is it really that F-U-N to break me? Is it really necessary to inflict all that P-A-I-N on me ever so often? D-I-V-O-R-C-E. T-E-A-R-I-N-G M-E. G-O-N-E....Is it a J-O-K-E to you? Am I suppose to L-A-U-G-H?Why did you B-R-E-A-K ME BEYOND R-E-P-A-I-R? And why do I C-O-M-E B-A-C-K every time just to be B-R-O-K-E-N even more?Because you're family. Because you W-E-R-E family.